Day 30: Your Fav Song From This Time Last Year

Haven't Met You Yet - Michael Buble

Looking back on last year, I find it crazy ironic that this was my favorite song from last spring.  I was really dreading celebrating another year with the Navy boy...and there were lots and lots of developments in my life.  So see...I just hadn't met Mr Right.  I hadn't met some of my dearest friends.  I hadn't hired some of my amazing sitters.  I hadn't been adored and appreciated by some of my favorite clients.  I just hadn't met you yet!

Day 29: A Song From Your Childhood

Walking On Sunshine - Katrina and the Waves

I remember this song coming on the radio and dancing around the house like a goofball!  My mom would grab my hands and spin me around and around.  That makes me laugh and get dizzy just thinking about it....I can still hear us singing!  Too fun.

Day 28: A Song That Makes You Feel Guilty

Look It Up - Ashton Shephard

This song makes me feel guilty, but not because I cheated.  Because I would take great pleasure in telling one of the bastards wife how awful he is and some of the hateful things he has said about her!  

The word is faithful - It don't mean sneakin' around with a trashy blonde old man!

The word is liar - But you'll need boots to wade through all the bull storm chaser!

The word is sober - It's right next to hell is freezin' over, flyin' pigs, and all that stuff navy boy!

The word is baby - It's what you call me and it's how you act every time I call your bluff landscaper!

I said go, goodbye, get lost, get out, get gone -The word is over!  As in your games and bullshit are done. As in you're an idiot for not realizing what you've lost!  As in you are so not worth my time and effort. 

As in you stepped so far over your boundaries that there is no saving a friendship or business relationship AND you're so lucky I don't ruin your marriage old man and tell the whole planet about that ole' blonde with a little junk in her trunk you've been dittling for 3 years!  Ooooph.

Day 27: A Song That You Wish You Could Play

I have accepted the fact that I am NOT musically inclined when it comes to playing an instrument.  It is something I really do not wish to learn.  Sorry....song challenge, FAIL!

Day 26: A Song That You Can Play On An Instrument

Chopsticks

Uhm yeah, I got nothing in the instrumental department!

Day 25: A Song That Makes You Laugh

You Lie - The Band Perry

This song is dedicated to all of the poor choices in men I have made.  It is also dedicated to all of the sleezeball salesmen I know.  Oh and one super special old man, whom had a serving of crow that I hope was rough going down and coming out!!  Oh you lie...its who you are, its what you do!!

For the Dog?

And the saga of the Landscaper continues.

As I was strolling into the house at 8:15pm after what was quite possibly the longest day of my life, the landscaper calls.  I answered barely and reluctantly (read with more hesitation that I can express and ICE in my voice).  Simon (the sweet sweet dog...whom I lovingly refer to as "little man") had eaten a blister pack of Ambien and the landscaper "didn't know who else to call".
RIIIGHT because you know the vet, the ER vet and poison control wouldn't have been able to help??

Needless to say I jumped online and googled the main ingredients and looked up possible outcomes.  I instructed him to pour peroxide down Simon's throat to induce vomiting and read as much info offline from my pet portal as I could find.

So much for a hot shower and relaxing...I spent the better part of the evening (read all night) texting and talking to him, helping him get poor Simon through the night alive.  Again - why not go to the ER??  I'm still not convinced Simon had more than one or two pills and he was just exaggerating to get my attention.  Just sayin.

By the time the sun rose again the landscaper was bringing up the "good ole days" and talking about the past and yadda yadda yadda.  Not only was I physically exhausted from Friday, but now I was mentally drained as well.  He missed our conversations, he missed the love and support for his battle with cancer, most of all he just missed my face.  (read, someone please shoot me)

I resorted to texting only because I was physically incapable of holding a conversation with him anymore.


The following Friday was the Big Hair Ball benefiting the SAAF House.  For whatever reason I felt compelled to text him a picture of me all done up in full makeup and big hair.  His reply "Amazing, Gorgeous.  Please have fun!!"  I couldn't reply or send anything else for fear of my makeup melting! 

Not only was my heart aching from talking to him and having emotions stirred up again, but this was the weekend leading into Relay week.  Tuesday was the survivor dinner, Friday was Relay, Sunday was Rockin For Remission.

By Wednesday I couldn't function, all I did was cry.  It was ridiculous.  RIDICULOUS!  As I was walking into my BNI meeting, I texted him that he was a "selfish idiot" and that he needed "to pull his head out of his ass" and realize "how amazing I am for loving him just the way he is - bow legged, common, cancer patient, landscaper".  Apparently this caught him off guard - quite frankly it caught me off guard that I actually sent it.  He replied "Wow, did you mean to send this to ME???????"  I let it ride....until after BNI at which point I could barely breath and wanted nothing more that a soft pillow and a nap.  I really unleashed in the subsequent three texts - telling him exactly how I felt and why he was a selfish idiot who couldn't battle alone and so many more things!

Thursday I was walking a dog and went past one of his crews....I texted him that I was sorry for unleashing on him, but that I meant every word I'd said.  No reply.

Friday and Saturday were Relay and honestly I was too busy to even think about him, or my own life.  We raised $325K for ACS!!  YAY for a world with more birthdays!

Sunday was Rock For Remission in Reeds Springs.  We raised $520 and had a great time!!

Monday I caved, I texted him again - "Did I mention how truly sorry I am for unleashing on you last week?"  He replied "Yes, you did.  I deserved it, you deserve better and Im sorry this has been so unfair to you".  Today is Tuesday - and somehow what seemed a dead affair is blossoming again with deeper understanding and a renewed love.

Please, shoot me now before my heart gets broken.  (Again)

Day 24: A Song You Want Played At Your Funeral

      Something More        Pocket Full of Sunshine

        Sugarland              Natasha Beddingfield

Either of these songs would be fine played at my funeral....I'd like to think I am **shaking pom-poms** while looking for something more and sharing my pocket full of sunshine!

Day 23: A Song You Want Played At Your Wedding

Butterfly Kisses - Bob Carlisle

I am a daddy's girl, even though I lost him a little over 9 years ago.  My dad is the reason I am the person I am today - he instilled the ambition and confidence in me that has allowed me to be strong and chase my dreams!

Day 22: A Song That You Listen To When You're Sad

 

This Year's Love - David Grey

This is another song added to my player courtesy of "the Muse". Enough said.

Day 21: A Song That You Listen To When You're Happy

Love Shack - B-52's

When you think big hair and crazy fun - this song comes to mind.  When Im happy, I put in my favorite 80s music!!

Journey, Cindi Lauper, Bon Jovi, Duran Duran, GNR, Madonna (before she was a psycho)

Day 20: A Song That You Listen To When You're Angry

Dancing Queen - ABBA

Can you think of a better song to play when you're just in a bad mood?  I mean really - we all need to reveal our inner dancing queen once in a while.  :)

Day 19: A Song From Your Favorite Album

Southern Hallelujah - Trace Adkins

This song cracks me up!  I seem to be a walking canundrum - I was born in Michigan and lived there til I was 8, which makes me a northern doll; however, I grew up in Florida which also makes me a southern grit.  Now...us northern dolls so pretty-please - dot our i's and cross our t's, so proper!  Us southern grits have this zippity-doo-dah what they do to ya southern hallelujah.

There isn't a day that goes by that someone (read the dirty little secret, the landscaper, my favorite oil change guy, the poor drive through person trying to figure out "Large, Diet Coooooke, no aaaaayce with a lemon wedge) doesn't comment on something I have said - certain words particularly stick out: Coleslaw, Oil, Dollar, Slice, Coke, Ozark.  And of course the more upset or worked up I get about a topic the more the Northern shines through. 

Day 18: A Song You Wish You Heard On The Radio

Big Black Horse and a Cherry Tree - KT Tunstall

This is one of those feel good, rock out songs that I wish I heard on the radio.  About the only time I get to hear it is if we're doing an old school class at Jazzercise, and this is one of my favorite routines!  Beth busts it out more than the other instructors!!

Day 17: A Song You Hear Often On The Radio

Rain Is A Good Thing - Luke Bryan

I have seen Luke Bryan in concert and he opened with the song.  Anytime it is cloudy or sprinkling or raining, you can usually find this song on ANY of the three country stations in town.  Its way over played.  Like most good things, it is great in moderation!

Day 16: A Song You Used To Love

Bless The Broken Road - Rascal Flatts

Once upon a time this song brought me joy beyond joy and filled my heart with warmth.  Now it makes me think of seven years spent sacrificing my hopes, dreams, wishes and potential! 

Day 15: A Song That Describes Me

My Give A Damn Is Busted - Jo Dee Macina

Truth be told my Give-a-Damn is on overdrive.  HOWEVER...you get approximately 32 seconds (read 32 for real seconds, not football seconds) to tell me all about it before we're going to figure out a game plan to fix it.  Oh and if you just want to bitch, well then you've come to the wrong person - because in that case, my give-a-damn is beyond fixable.  Love you, Mean it!! 

Day 14: A Song That Noone Would Expect Me To Like

Chantilly Lace - The Big Bopper

I LOVE this song!  I have always LOVED this song!  When I was with my mom - the oldies were on the radio as loud as you could stand it!  I have lots of fond memories from my childhood that include my mom and I dancing and singing to the oldies.  Good Times, Good Times!

Day 13: A Song That Is A Guilty Pleasure

Party In The USA - Miley Cyrus

So who's that chick rocking kicks?  Uh yeah - that is so me, just ask Mellentine!  HA HA HA All I see are stilettos...moving my hips like yeah!  I can neither confirm or deny that when this song comes on the radio I turn it up LOUD and rock out like Im a teenager in my room with a hairbrush as my mic!  

So put your hands up, nod your head like yeah and move your hips like yeah....Its a party in the USA!

Day 12: A Song From A Band You Hate

Womanizer - Britney Spears

There are a multitude of reasons I can't stand Britney - her musical, uhm abilities are just the beginning.  But she does have a point - if you want crazy, she's got your crazy!

Day 11: A Song From My Favorite Band

Shakin Hands - Nickelback

Its tough to be a secret when you're one of the BEST!  

Oddly enough, I have made it this far by just shaking hands - however, I am the best in the business and I have my eye on the prize - to be a household name!!  City hall isn't getting a hold of ANY of my books and I stay close to my five-star friends.  

Be Strong

I texted with "the landscaper" today.  Apparently mother nature is not being nice to the business, but alas he is hanging on.  I jokingly reminded him that by now surely Mother Nature was menopausal which explains the hot and cold weather changes.  Snowing one morning, 80 by the afternoon - got to be menopause!  He laughed and more than anything said he appreciated the laugh.

We joked like the good old days and lots was said without being said.  I managed to make it almost 30 minutes without crying.  I miss him!!  I miss him so much, but I can't let myself get drawn into anything with (#1) a married guy (#2) who refuses to accept support while battling cancer (#3) that is a client.

So again I say...stop crying, really this time!

Day 10: A Song That Makes You Fall Asleep

 

The Fray

Oh the Fray...yeah there have been a lot of days that were labeled "A Fray Kind Of Day".  The Fray soothes me and calms me.  It doesn't make me cry or make me think....it just calms me down.  :)

Oddly enough, the Fray reminds me of the Landscaper (now that I think about it).  He used to say "well its a Fray kind of day" which is why I started listening to the band - trying to figure out what he was talking about.  While I miss him, he has some emotional demons that I just can't deal with...and telling him to see a counselor probably wouldn't go over so well.  Just Sayin.

Day 9: A Song You Can Dance To

Watermelon Crawl - Tracy Byrd

Line dancing is by far something that escapes me - except this song!  I can wiggle and jiggle and for sure be all you ever saw!!

If you drink, don't drive - do the watermelon crawl, have you all!!

Day 8: A Song You Know All The Words To

So What - Pink

This is MY karaoke song (read along with a million other people across the nation).  I belt it out loud and proud at Shultz N Dooleys, Parrot Cove and anywhere else that has an open mic!!

This is MY anthem - I don't need a man (or anyone else) to take care of me.  I have my own money, I manage my own successful company, I pay my own bills, I make my own fun and most of all I am who I am!  

 Lord knows I have my own attitude...and I do wear it tonight, I get in some trouble and I do start fights!

It is a jazzercise routine that I can do in my sleep without an cuing...and I have been known to throw in the routine while doing karaoke.  

Oddly enough, while this has always been my song of empowerment that I know all the words to - now that I am recently single it is even more empowering. I've got my rock moves, and I don't need you tonight! :)

Day 7: A Song That Reminds You of a Certain Event

Single Ladies - Beyonce

This song will forever remind me of performing at the Kansas City Chiefs half-time performance in October of 2009.  The jazzercise gals took the field in honor of breast cancer awareness and rocked the house in pink tops and black jazzertogs!

Bonus points if you can spot me!! 

Get a cape and tights!

I reluctantly met with a sales person today (read I had to drag myself kicking and screaming because I had exhausted all possible excuses known to mankind, and this guy is the only sales person I know who can out rebuttal me).

I have been called by him once, and blew him off completely because I had been contacted by not one, not two, but three other people from his company.

His initial phone call being an EPIC FAIL, he took the liberty of emailing me - detailing some of the benefits of his company for mine and so forth.  I replied, thanks but no thanks.

He visited my BNI group and shook my hand.  I kindly smiled and introduced him to the gentleman standing next to me and excused myself to "prepare for the meeting" (read to give me a swift exit to get the hell away from this guy).  He visited again...twice! NO WAY...he did not turn in an application!!

OH SHIT...he joined my BNI group.  Damn it....now by default as the Secretary/Treasurer of the group I am obligated to meet with him as part of the mentoring process.  Not to mention that whole 1-2-1 thing which I sort of have to hold up my 1 part of the 1-2-1.  **sigh**

The meeting was actually pleasant.  He didn't try and sell me anything!!  He actually just wanted to get to know me and about my business because its a neat concept.  I found out he was one of the founders of one of my favorite college haunts (read the cute little Italian place across the street from my college house that I ate at DAILY).  He is actually pretty smart, lost his wife to breast cancer and is kind of super dad to two great kids.  Ok so he isn't a total douche once you get to know him....he is just eager to please and be part of the group.  He also doesn't have a sales background, so he is a bit heavy handed when it comes to cold calling.  All in all, he seems nice and is not only eager to please - but eager to learn and be a better sales person.  Excellent!

It made me laugh though because in his follow up email he said "you know, you're super powerful - like you need a cape and tights!".  He was very kind and it is most flattering to know that someone out there in the business community has heard great things and thinks highly of me and my business.

Day 6: A Song That Reminds You of Somewhere

We Need A Little Christmas

This song has always been one of my favorite Christmas songs - it makes me think of the days of working at Dixie Stampede, it brings back memories (read the smell of Rosco theatrical paint and Flagler Auditorium) of the musical "Mame" and of course it makes me think of snowy days up in Michigan searching my grandparents property for "the perfect Christmas tree"!

Don't Feel Too Old!

The people who are starting college this Fall across the nation were born in 1993.

They are too young to remember the space shuttle blowing up.
Their lifetime has always included AIDS.
Bottle caps have always been screw off and plastic.
The CD was introduced the year they were born.
They have always had an answering machine.
They have always had cable.
They cannot fathom not having a remote control.
Jay Leno has always been on the Tonight Show.
Popcorn has always been cooked in the microwave.
They never took a swim and thought about Jaws.
They can't imagine what hard contact lenses are.
They don't know who Mork was or where he was from.
They never heard: "Where's the Beef?", "I'd walk a mile for a Camel", or "de plane Boss, de plane".
They do not care who shot J. R. and have no idea who J. R. even is.
McDonald's never came in Styrofoam containers.
They don't have a clue how to use a typewriter.

Do you feel old yet?

Day 5: A Song That Reminds Me Of Someone

Chasing Cars - Snow Patrol

For reasons that I'm not sure I understand or even want to come to grips with, this song reminds me of a near and dear friend who is sort of my "dirty little secret".  Oddly enough he has become one of my closest friends and I don't know what I would do some days without him to talk to or run away with and go shopping! 

I met him quite randomly at a completely informal lunch the Wednesday before Thanksgiving in 2009.  Honestly the minute I sat down it was "game on" and by the end of lunch I wanted to kill him (read or kiss him).  I hadn't decided yet.  (I have since made up my mind that I don't wish to kiss him....there are times when I still want to kill him)  While he would have the rest of the population believe he is a complete douche bag, he is pretty nice when he wants to be.  He has NO skills with the ladies and his ego isn't nearly as inflated as he wants you to think. In the last year and a half we have discovered that we share a brain and have entirely too much fun together.  The friendship is easy and fun - like life should be!  We're both vegetarians with a snarky sense of humor - I refuse to try and label the way things work - they just do.  "It is what it is"

For those keeping track, as much of a part of my life as he has - this is the first blog post about him.  Odd. For THAT person who really keeps track...this is "the Muse".

This song reminds me of him because when we were first getting to know one another he would give me a song each night before he said goodbye - he thinks my choice in music sucks.  This song has stuck with me and always reminds me of him.

Now that I think about it, he doesn't give me a song of the night anymore.  That makes me sad.

Day 4: A Song That Makes Me Sad

Dust In The Wind - Kansas

This is the song that played at my daddy's memorial service, and it is the song that goes with his memorial video.  Palm Sunday 2011 marks nine years since he left this earth.  His mission here was complete and I've never been more at peace with losing someone.  That being said, there isn't a day that passes that I don't miss him!

Day 3: Feel Good Song

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NC0IhlquYlI

 Jane Deer Girls - Wildflower

Hey, I'm a wildflower, growin' in the sunshine, soakin' up the way of life I was raised in,
runnin' barefoot bloomin' in a summer shower, ponytail dancin' I can't help it. I-I'm a wildflower. 

To know me, is to know I am without a doubt a wild flower and my ponytail is ALWAYS dancin!!

Day 2: My Least Favorite Song

Kid Rock and Cheryl Crow - Picture

I can say without fail that every time this song comes on it puts me in a bad mood and I change the station! 

Day 1: My Favorite Song

Fishing In The Dark - Nitty Gritty Dirt Band

This  has ALWAYS been my favorite song, I turn it up and belt out the lyrics shamelessly every single time it is playing!  Its fun, its whimsical and its just a cute feel good song.  :)